Confessions of a very extremely super broke girl

urgh blocked nose =(
lazing arnd at home
it's rly nice to be able to do anything you want on a weekend=)

this wk was a pretty ...
well i wld say eventful and rollercoaster-like wk
bad stuff first up then

yep had many quarrels wif him
over many things
first was over smth i said tt hurt him
next came the independent speech from me
followed by the 'jealous factor'
sigh
i guess the most impactful of all wld be the last one
but o well
we still managed to clear up the all in the end
mentally taxing
but yeah still survived thru in the end
ultimately unbreakable i hope=)

happy things now!
apart from the clearing up of our quarrels
met up wif the royal highnesses hahahah
jon's enlisting into NS this coming thurs
we can't send him off though
so our meeting was our last meeting wif him b4 he goes in!
kinda sad though
nxt time wan meet up wld be harder le bah
will miss him haha
he dyed his hair!
and shorts! o.0
hahahahaha
went to miss clarity @ thomson
not a rly nice place n the food's sad =(
kb n i shared a bottle of beer
forgot the name haha
tkb tag me on the name of the beer leh lol
i quite like the taste of the beer though
not tt i'm a beer lover
but the taste's rly mild haha
so it's nice to me
jy agrees too
but kb n jon disagrees
o well they always support each other anyway... =p
chatter and loads of laughs abt kb
ROFL. international marriage ceremonies hahahahhaha
miss them big time
i was pretty upset wif him at tt time
but wif the 3 of them
i always switch mood to being happy=)
kb, jy, jon = <3

will be meeting up wif gina nxt sunday lunch=)
will ask her to bring ivan along while i bring yh
but yeah she met yh b4 le haha
official meeting wif her bf!
can't wait!

o ya bought a blue dress from hypnosis and a pair of slip-ons from charles and keith
OMG AT THIS RATE I'M GONNA BE BROKE!!!
already bought 6 diff pieces of clothing - -
still wanna buy
- tights
- white n black tube top
- white shoes! URGENT
- coin purse (the wallet bro bought for me dun hv pouch for coins!!!)
- bag (psst i saw a white carlo rino bag @ bhg lovesssss... but $95 omfg) maybe can aim for a charles n keith bag?
- undergarments (will settle by this wk - - BROKE)

huge sigh
how am i gg to hv enough $ for vday n bday presents?!
die.
stupid pay will only come earliest on the 8th
bloody hell
lucky i no nd contribute to cpf hehehehe
can't wait for pay!!!
i may hv to eat into my this month's savings =(
i promise i'll save more nxt month!!!
o god pls bless me wif better finance management...

tata!

Signing off,
the very extremely super broke girl
P.S. Anyone care to donate to the 'Dawn's Needy Foundation'? Cash and cheque accepted. Lunch and dinner treats are also accepted. Thank you for your generosity=)

omfg
boss is being a total bitch today
he wants me to sit in a lecture tmr jus to see if there's anything worth as an article wtf
nvm tt the content of the lecture is totally irrelevant
the stupid lecture goes on for a whole fucking day
wth wth
total waste of my time
can hv one more article on the patients or volunteers he dun wan
purposely wan to throw this kinda shit to me
and my executive is like totally taking things so easy so relaxed
got interns tt supposed to report to the venue for work attachment at 930
he came at 10 and still make them wait another 15mins
seriously wad is wrong wif the ppl here la.
working in such a shitty department rly makes me mad sometimes
yet i can't rly say much since 'the walls have ears'
much thanks to my blog since it allows me to bitch wadeva i wan lol
no restrictions, no worries.

finally updating - -

v long nvr update blog le
sigh
supposed to be at work actually but o well...

work's boring
during dec still got student volunteers here to rly chat up the entire day
still remain in contact with them
amazingly i thought my social circle would expand because of my collegues
in the end it turns out that i'm rly closer to the volunteers and of course Kim=)
first half of the day was absolutely crazy
not that it was my fault
but huge relief that everything's settled down more or less... for now
left abt 6 wks before my contract ends here
will start looking for another job during feb
still contemplating if i shld only start work aft my birthday
working life rly sucks
the only gd thing abt it is the obvious: $
even so
pay sucks totally.
but yeah there are ppl much worse off
and who wld ever be lucky enough to work under a super flexible manager and an ultra-slack collegue?!
told mum i'll never play office politics
but like it or not
you'll be in it once you step into the company
it's so extreme until 'the walls have ears, hush'
sigh
i guess this is THE WORKING LIFE

it's been pretty rocky wif him
realized that long-term relationships are rly hard to maintain
i can now say for sure: HONEYMOON PERIOD'S OVER.
getting upset at each other seems to be the norm now for us
it would be rare if we can last a day without getting upset at each other
that's how bad it is now.
we proclaimed at the start that we'll last till marriage
but woah it's rly not that simple
there's... rly too many differences and clashes of interest
our thinking and mentality towards various issues are completely different
perhaps even like avatar vs human - -
we can't see eye to eye for 99.9% of the time
sometimes i feel that being friends is a far more wise decision...
and there's the problem of having a guy who's currently serving NS
never mind that we spend less time with each other
when he books out he's usually so tired
the mood...
plus now that i'm working
voila - even less time
because of all these, i realize
being independent is of utmost importance
he's never physically there when i'm sick or when i'm facing a crisis
and no, smses via hp does not help all the time.
sometimes when i expect something that normally guys would do and he does not fulfil it
i get really disappointed and think to myself
why can't he learn?
but yeah the bottom line is
BE INDEPENDENT
that's when you lessen the disappointment by a whole damn lot.
i guess i'm rly slow at learning that - -

3 of my student volunteers are coming on wed to visit me whoopee!
meeting up with the queen, the king and the prince lol
(so what am i? the royal pet toad? - -)
the prince is gg NS sooooon
so must meet up more haha
miss them loads
hopefully hopefully meeting up wif gina darling on sat for lunch=)
hvt catch up wif her for a long long time man
miss her too=)

gtg do a little work before knocking off in an hr's time
tata!


btw bro's joining NCC!!! Whee so happy for him=)
AND I GOT MY FIRST DEBIT CARD HURRAH!!!
restaurent promotions here i come=)

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO TKB N DARL! =)

geog, gp, math are done.

left with chem paper 2 (nxt tues),

bio paper 3 n chem paper 1 (23 Nov)

bio paper 1 (3 Dec)

the hurricane wk is over

sigh

mixed feelings though

am rly relieved tt its over

but then...

am also scared to look at the result slip nxt yr haha.

am scared i gonna get grades tt will get me nowhere.

am afraid of the uncertainty.

sigh.

am rly addicted to FB applications

Restaurant City, Cafe World, Farmville, Fishville n Rollercoaster Kingdom

damn

wish i hadnt started it lol

now keep having to chk constantly to keep things running smoothly

if only running these stuff was tt easy haha.

i wan go swimming!!!

and exercise till i drop dead from exhaustion haha

and start to learn how to play the guitar hehe

as well as learn drums if possible

omg im rly fat now =(

sigh.

omg so many ppl i wan meet up wif

so many things i wanna do

can't wait.

prelims are finally finally over

though i started slackin since last fri - -

haha

watched 'the ugly truth' wif kb last fri aft our bio paper ended

HILARIOUS TO THE CORE

we kept LOL-ing throughout the entire show

rather crude, as someone puts it,

but definitely an enjoyable one=)

went over to yh's hse on sat for bbq

met his cousins

how interesting!

it was like i cld rly 'click' wif them

though san being pri4 but i got along rly well wif her=)

o and her sis is rly like me LOL

laughing much and being in a cca which we dun look like haha!

btw yeah she's J2 too haha more in common!

gained 2 new frens now=)

sunday was our delayed 1.5 anniversary

of which much unhappiness surrounded it before sunday

but sunday turned out great=)

he surprised me wif a BLUE ROSE!!!

e first n last time he bought flowers was v day

so it was rly a pleasent surprise haha

not cos of e flower

but the fact tt he got a flower=)

could'nt find the white dress i wanted

so bought a v sweet white blouse instead 'beams

and that was his present to me

went to hv lunch at katong laksa

then head back to raffles city springfield

whr i bought for him the black collared shirt=)

looked abit small at first but man

i think he looks much gd-looking in black

(yeah yeah besides the fact that i do love looking at guys who wear decent looking black collared shirts, short/long sleeves. Makes them more dressed up and guy-ish, don't you think?)

went swensen's for dinner

then PS for 'the ugly truth' which, yes, i'm watchin again

cos i rly love how tt show makes me laugh n tt happy ending!

rly happy tt day=) and it marked an end to our unhappiness before=)

then fast forward to today!

math p2 was BEYOND BLEAK.

i guess this'll be the last time i'm failing math bah.

sighs.

went to AMK Lib for books then had budget lunch wif kb n jon

then we went to j8

passed by the mooncake exhibition hehe

saw loads of interesting flavours

wad wif blackforest (urgh tt was way too sweet =( )

champagne flavour (no sample for tt ='( )

and yeah many other weird flavours

then we shopped at nature republic

whr we each bought a bottle of nail polish

i bought omg light blue!? first of my kind

i'm usually into bronze or dark purple or mother-of-pearl

my first blue!

which i happily painted on my toe nails at home a few hrs ago=)

then watched 'gamer' wif kb

yeah its m18 no doubts abt tt - -

but e plot was pretty cool though

haha

cos i'm into such computer-game-turn-reality kinda stories

eg Givenchy Code - thumb's up for tt man!

haha

and the actor's the same as 'the ugly truth'!

o yeah Gerard Butler =)

am now engrossed in reading my lib books

until my hell comes back

and for 2mrw

besides gg over to his hse for swimming

i have at least 4 stacks of articles sitting on my mind

waiting for me to complete my index-ing.

urgh.

can't they even give us a break - -

random: LOVE MY NEW BLUE NAILS=))

tata!

finished gp prelim exam on thurs

damn

Recent advances in Science has reshaped our world. Consider the implications of this trend?

urgh.

horrible.

today marks the start of my real thorough revision

shall i highlight what i aim to complete within 9 days?

(starting from today, NOW.)

Bio: Read thru all topics notes n practice qns in at least 2 prelim papers.

Chem: Same. And complete tuition practice paper hmwk.

Math: Finish at least 2 practice papers.

Geog: Read thru all notes n look thru qns. And omfg jus realize tt i didn't plan for any geog consultation during sep hols.

oh, FML. how is that even possible within 9 f-ing days - -

unless i dun slp or eat

urgh.

/wrists.

my life now can be summarized in 1 word.

bleak.

sigh.

1.5 anni nxt wk.

but too stressed to feel tt excited abt it anymore lol.

shall go back to bio.

sigh.

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

Straight Through My Heart - Backstreet Boys

In the heart
Of the night
Where its dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor

I looked down
And my shirt's turning red
I’m spinning around
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in my ear
Like I missed you
want you tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can’t stop the bleeding
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can’t believe it
No I cant resist
And I can't be hit
I just cant escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

Thought I moved
More than on
Thought I could
Fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I cant leave her alone

Hear the sound
Of a love so loud
I just can’t, I just can’t
Ignore this feeling
Said she misses me
And she wants me
Wants me tonight

In the heart
Of the night
When its dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor

love these 2 songs!!!

man taylor swift is drop dead gorgeous!

sigh...

gp prelim 2mrw

die

why the hell am i still here?!

'runs off to continue reading aritcles