its been abt 4 wks
but this 4 wks seemed as if
half my life has passed by
i learnt n changed so much during
this short span of time
selection pressure: NS

yeah it seems pretty ridiculous
i mean
i'm not even serving NS
haiz
regrettably though yh is
or maybe not.

well, one thing i can say is
our relationship sure became stronger
i remember vividly
the first 2 wks of confinement
those phone calls tt lasted avg 15 mins
tt was rly a huge jump from the 2hr phone calls
we used to hv b4 he went in
it was rly hard for me at tt time
trust me
you hv no idea how much i cried during
the first 4 nights
because at tt time i realize
at night
he wasn't physically thr anymore
no more complaining over e phone
no more mindless gossip
when i pick up e phone
i go straight to e pt of what i want to
say to him
no stammerings
no hesitations
and definitely
no crying
cos i figured out crying over e phone
is just a wastage of our precious time
every single minute
perhapes even second counts

yeah i do cry lesser nowadays
partly cos of the fact i forced myself
to adapt to this new life
life without him during the wkdays
the tears has somewhat dried up already
but thr are of course some breaking pts
afterall i'm still human
i do feel lonely
i can't be 24/7 strong
thr were certain factors tt accumulated
and pushed me to my breaking pt last mon
it was terrible
i cried
and i made him cry n worry
which ultimately made me even more sad
but we talked thru
we both felt
tt our relationship is strong enuf to
overcome these factors
and so problem solved=)

he's gg on field trip nxt wk
which means
5D4N no phone contact at all=(
i dunno how the hell am i gg to survive nxt wk
loading myself wif work n chionging finish my tutorials
seems like a pretty gd solution
hopefully tt 5 days will quickly pass by painlessly
pray tt the tears n breaking pts will not come during tt period
pray tt i will be strong enough
pray tt i will survive.

kb jus reminded me ytd
cos now my wkends are totally spent on him
i dun even do my work on the wkends
which i used to
which means
i gotta start making full use of my wkdays to chiong
my work
since i'm spending my wkends wif him already
haiz
mus stop taking long naps le
now the schedule is so tight!
i'm starting to feel tightness n suffocation
but i'm still not taking much action - -
hope i dun nd mid-yrs as a wake-up call man

to darling
jiayou for your field camp
when it's over you only hv abt half the
journey of ur BMT to complete!

to myself
gambatte!
you'll hv more than just 9 wks in battle
i'll be needing more of perseverance
less of weakness n vulnerability
god help me.

all the little things that you do for me
seemed so insignficant when you were still around
sending me home almost every nite
bringing tissue when we're out
holding out your water bottle to me
reminding me if there's a step
taking my bag for me when i'm feeling lazy
helping me blow-dry my hair
guiding me in my work
holding out a tissue whenever i needed it
wiping my tears away with your fingers
faking sleep when you demanded my attention
bringing baby to my house
wearing whichever outfit i wanted you to wear
having to tolerate my mood swings
all these small little things
added up and ultimately
i realize their importance only when you're about to go
only when it's too late

your snoring
your umbrella
your home dressing
your hair
your tummy
your singing
all the little things that you do makes you beautifully imperfect
i miss you.

jus met up wif tkb, jon n darl at manhatten fish market

jy u've been missed

anyway

shared seafood platter wif kb

nice!!!

service thr was great too=)

it was pretty hilarious today

cos they were trying to give me a surprise but somehow...

hahhaha damn funny la!

always spoilt by me LOL

anyway

got a flower balloon, home-baked dark choc cake and crumpler bag from them
i know its super super ex

sry guys...

but yeah i love it alright=)

including tt bitter dark choc frosting cake=p

had a wonderful time wif u guys 2nite

laughing n crying hahahah

rly appreciate alot

sry tkb made u waste ur entire day today away

but i rly appreciate wad u done for me

making a surprise

not for my bday alone

but also surprising me wif the thought tt yall truly cared for me

arigatou kb, jon, goat n darl=)

home-baked dark choc cake by kb n darl=))

bday cake box top=)

flower balloon n black crumpler=)

today's post is dedicated to the following ppl
thank you so much to you guys
for loving n caring for me so much
and celebrating my bday for me=)

the most thoughful girl - peilin =)
thnx so much for the pouch n magnet!
i know ur bday's coming up! =p

candice nu er=)
thnx so much for tt swensen's treat!
hvt ate thr for a long time
i truly enjoyed our catching up n the black pepper seafood pasta=p

(in no order of preference) ruiyin hot babe, princess jer, aunty zhilin, mooncake fellow bday girl, v xin fu lirong =)
thnx gals for tt beautiful card, nice bag n of course the face shop nail polish
had a wonderful kim gary dinner wif yall
love u guys!

dearest darl yi herng=)
for celebrating our anniversary wif watchmen n carl's junior
though quite random
but yeah i enjoyed myself, just so you know=p
thnx darl!

to my beloved family
thnk you for pei-ing and celebrating my bday for the past 19 yrs
i truly appreciate all the time spent
hugs and love=)

the class clique!
amanda the pig, yunhan the quiet one, terence laughter, soen meow and tkb
thnk you all so much for giving me a memorable time at astons by surprising me wif the wallet n posh brownies!
hahas had a great time laughing silly wif yall!
hugs=)

for the future (actually its 2mrw)
tkb (yes u again!), darl (you too!) jianyang the goat and jon the AJI singer
though i dunno wad u guys are planning/up to
someone told me its gonna be a surprise tt i'll love
but anyway
wif or without the surprise
thnk you so much for tolerating me these 2 yrs
its been great knowing you guys
hope we can stay like tt forever=)
hugs - applicable to kb only

clar, tian sheng kor, gina, benjamin kor kor, dingjie, jeremy tan, meikee
thnk u for ur bday wishes=)

d day's superb this yr! =))
love u guys!

ugh potato

sweet potato sucks to wadeva hell

its not sweet
its not a potato
its disgusting
its ugh
its wtf
it shuld be called.......... qweeeh (completely random)

urgh hving allergy reaction to fur
cos me n darl went into a pet shop on fri (i didnt touch anything!!!)
nxt moment at home my hand had little bumps tt congregrate to form lumps
unbearable at nite =(
sat morning went to e doc
she gave me a jab n some med
funniest thing - e med's drowsy effect was so effective tt i fell aslp in e clinic while waiting for my med to be ready - -'''
dad had a tough time getting me home lol
at e end of sat i took my med n went to bed
which i then woke up on sunday morning
to find e most horrifying scene ever
my legs were covered in rashes =(
but now it was redder n not in lumps
haiz
so went back to e doc in e aftnn
however he said it was all part of allergy reaction
and tt he cldnt do anymore already
so i only needed time
haiz
i rather he gave me another jab man LOL
i wanna get back my norm skin! =(

o yea btw
my paternal aunt is a two-face lying bitch.
have i mentioned tt earlier?
oops.

my paternal aunt is a two-face lying god-damn bitch.
o yeah.